The struggles that you're having are temporary..when we get to Heaven we will never have to struggle or worry again! And the best part will be that we'll get to reunite with the loved ones that have gone before us! You have nothing to fear as long as you cling to God and you serve him..He is such a marvelous God and He is such a forgiving God! Don't be afraid because God is with you today and it's all going to work out..you will see! Just hold on a little longer and have faith that God's going to help you to make it through!